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Poster: direwolf0701 Date: Aug 8, 2007 2:36pm
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has anyone here ever really thought about suicide?? just curious. not really looking for a psychological vomit fest, but just curious.

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Poster: jglynn1.2 Date: Aug 8, 2007 2:46pm
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only in my youthful naivety before I realized life was too short to begin with.

P.S. Liked the Jane's Addiction link - reminded me of the Live and Rare CD which I haven't listened to in a dog's age - If you don't have it it is worth every penny. It rocks from start to finish.

P.S.s. . Long but funky http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IN7cysVNkF0

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Poster: latebutdeadicated Date: Aug 9, 2007 6:47am
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just logged in and read this post.

Dire, your friends here have said more than I ever could.

I will just add that you will be in my thoughts and prayers.

May your heart and soul find peace and hapiness in the blessings and good fortunes of life.

Love yourself and your family.

Take care.

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Poster: JodyC Date: Aug 8, 2007 5:14pm
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Hey D- no pyschologist here, but even bringing it up as a curiousity is probably quite healthy. I tend to dwell on some rather negative shit even though my life is in relatively good shape. I have a passing thought on the gloomy times about death, but not so much suicide. Hell, I'm afraid of getting a shot, so probably way too much of a wimp to do any harm to myself. Always comes back to my daughter who I have to live for. Besides, how will we know how the story ends if we turn it off too soon. Hang tough bro, and as someone said this to shall pass. Not to sound simplistic, but figure out what makes you happy and put yourself in thatt situation as much as you can. If its your girls, surround yourself with them, pictures of them and you during xmas, pixs they drew, etc. You saw a rather positive and rapid response from those here who care. Dwell on that if need be. Bottling it up is the worst thing, so congrats for bridging the topic.

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Poster: BlueMtnMan Date: Aug 8, 2007 4:33pm
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I can't say that I've contemplated ending my life. An experience I had in college helps me to remember that suicide solves nothing. It may be worth telling to those that do harbor such dark notions. Take it as you will, maybe it will give one who needs it pause to think.

It's spring and a Friday afternoon. My house mate and I arrive back at our apartment from classes and are ready for the weekend. We open the door and are immediately struck by an unnatural chill inside; the kind that makes your hairs stand up on end. I remember both of us commenting as we enter. We both sit down; me in a chair and he on the couch situated at 90 degrees to each other. A feeling of foreboding and dread engulfs me. As I start to say wtf is going on a vast darkness engulfs me. The best I can describe it is being engulfed in a pitch black utter sense of despair where nothing but that existed. I freak. I stand, twist and cast this from me. Unfortunately, I cast it onto my house mate. He literally convulses. The look of terror in his eyes can never be forgotten. Eventually he throws this energy off and we get the hell out of dodge.

I should note that we were perfectly straight at the time.

We find out the following day the guy in the apartment next door had hung himself. The best we could determine, his suicide had occurred minutes before we arrived at my apartment.

I'll always believe that we encountered the poor guy's spirit at the time it departed his body. He took all of his pain and agony with him. What my house mate and I experienced was as close to hell as I ever want to come. I figure it's better better to work through life's challenges while you are here than to take it with you.

Peace

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Poster: direwolf0701 Date: Aug 8, 2007 5:19pm
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sorry to have brought the whole thing up. ive been there too. me and my bud - playin frisbee outside his friends house - asked his friends wife to grab her husband to come outside.....


he was hanging in the basement....


the screaming is something i will never forget

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Poster: patourkid Date: Aug 8, 2007 6:10pm
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Dire there was a time about 4-5 years ago where it crossed my mind every minute of every day I won't go deep into details but HEROIN says enough, I've been clean for three years now and my life is GRATE!! I never would have believed 4 years ago that I was going to be anything other than a bottom of the barrel junky but I was to chicken to kill myself so I got in the car and left and never looked back .I had no one and things got REAL bad for me for a while. But I stuck it out and now Ive started a family and my daughter means the world to me. May 5 of last year I got a phone call that I knew was coming...My 24 year old brother died of an o.d I dont think it was intentional I think he just gave up. I carry the guilt of gettin him high for his first time... it eats me up every day!! makes my resolve that much stronger....if you ever need to talk holler at me. Dont leave your kids the guilt!!

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Poster: direwolf0701 Date: Aug 8, 2007 7:14pm
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thank you pat - you just put tears in my eyes - im so sorry about your brother - i dont know what to say about that.

thank you for reaching out to me - i know you dont know me from adam. i appreciate your words and your concern. i really do.

i'll be ok man - and if i'm not......

well - you guys will know

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Poster: dstanme Date: Aug 8, 2007 7:15pm
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Dire, you and I have touched based a very little bit through this forum, but please let me share my story. Married almost twenty years, no kids , good money and decent enouggh life style. One day not only does my wife not want to be married anymore, but she's sending sex letters back and forth with one of her former patients (methadone) who is residing in a federal prison. Believe that shit will sap what ever strength you have. Short story, I came very close to taking my own life, very close... ten years later, I'm remarried with 2 kids living a great life in maine. On the occasional sad days, I take a walk along the beach and look out at Casco Bay. And I hug my wife and kids a lot...one wrong step and I'd have denied them my place in their lives and believe me, they need me as much as I need them.

You can think about it, talk about if you need to, but that other guy is dead wrong, it's a selfish act and what you'll steal from your family is incomprehensible. What kind of legacy would that be to leave for your babies??

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Poster: direwolf0701 Date: Aug 8, 2007 7:32pm
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you are absolutely right man. i am so glad you happy now man - damn, you must have gone through some hard times. i dont envy you that at all. im goin through some of my own right now.

but yes. i cannot do that to my babies. and i dont plan to. my post was just a post. im not sure what i was really thinking. im a bit messed up - but i wont do that. not to them. i wont be that selfish. i love them too much.

thank you for your post. that was very touching and very sweet. i appreciate you sharing with me. i wish i could share more but.....

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Poster: rastamon Date: Aug 8, 2007 4:32pm
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HEY NOW! Boston Red Sox >> 68 & 45 -In sole possesion of first place
(though they've lost 2 in a row....)

I've oft thought of the slow suicide I'm commiting thru my diet & lifestyle, but what the hell, i will die of something-someday. I lived for Jerryday and now I'm DL'n some JGB with Kimock...life is good! One minute at a time my friend

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Poster: ducats Date: Aug 8, 2007 4:55pm
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and the NYY are a slow train a comin!

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Poster: WHARFRAT Date: Aug 8, 2007 5:15pm
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althogh they are losing at the moment ...
Could'nt agree with you more ducats!!!

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Poster: direwolf0701 Date: Aug 8, 2007 4:49pm
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not what i was referring to my freind


hope you are doing well buddy - been so long!!!

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Poster: WHARFRAT Date: Aug 8, 2007 3:32pm
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My time comming any day don't worry about me nah.
OOOOPS sorry thought we were still doing opening
lines to songs. My bad.

Why rush whats inevidable, Just take a look at poor peter,
See here how everything lead up to this day.

Hope this day finds you well my friend and think happy thoughts :)

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Poster: direwolf0701 Date: Aug 8, 2007 3:44pm
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thanks steve - not overly happy thoughts

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Poster: spacedface Date: Aug 8, 2007 5:39pm
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Maybe you can spend some time with people that make you happy, back away from any self-medication, and take a walk in nature.

They showed a documentary on PBS in the Bay Area of Golden Gate Bridge jumpers, esp the ones who survived. The main guy who speaks to people about suicide now said that as soon as he jumped he wished he hadn't. It was very emotional, but he's truckin' on fine now.

It just takes time to come around to where it's light. When it happens to me it's like “the one who is worshipped” is forcing me to change something so my night job will pay.



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Poster: user unknown Date: Aug 8, 2007 5:27pm
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Don, yes I have considered it on several occasions. Thankfully whenever I've reached that point, I've seen the selfishness (yea ducats it is most definitely an act of supreme selfishness), suffered the attack of cowardice, or had close friends recognize my sorry state and convince me that it just ain't worth it. I'm pretty sure those friends didn't realize I was in as bad a state of mind, but they knew I was hurting and reached out to me. The outpouring of love and concern can do wonders to convince one to stick around. Though I am late coming into this thread, I will echo the sentiments of several other posters and just say, "You know how to get in touch with me brother. If there is anything I can do, please let me know."

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Poster: direwolf0701 Date: Aug 8, 2007 7:04pm
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thanks man - i got your email and will respond to you there - thank you bill my friend :)

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Poster: Earl B. Powell Date: Aug 8, 2007 6:44pm
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Been there at the verge, at the very close edge of offing the whole thing. Had less than nobody and things weren't looking up. Sobriety had long since disappeared, along with a job and most everything I owned.

I don't know what stopped it all, but coming back from that edge set me up for the rest of my life. Nothing, I repeat, nothing is worth dying for...especially something coming out of your own head. Even at the brink, there is a purpose for being.

Ever since, all things have come in moderation and all things I seek in moderation. Notrhing is so important that it would keep me from breathing my next breath.

I used to feel like life has dealt me a lot of shitty cards. These days I'll go ahead and let the shit knock me down, confident in the knowledge that no matter what, I'll pick myself up, brush myself off and keep going down the road.


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Poster: direwolf0701 Date: Aug 8, 2007 7:20pm
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thank you Earl - your words really ring true to be honest - like you said - i just cant do it anyway - i got too little beautiful ones at stake who have too much to lose and would blame themselves

i'll be fine

thanks to all that responded tonite - i'm not realy sure what i was looking for, but i got much more support than i ever thought i would. thank you all. More of you came out and commented than i would have thought. I am touched. I really am. You have all made me and my loved ones feel special and worth it - i really appreciate the family that we are here - you are all special in my heart- no joke. Each and every one of you. Thank you.

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Poster: nagdot Date: Aug 8, 2007 4:57pm
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if you want someone kool to talk to that wont judge you. my friend lives in boston. shes a deadhead. i wont go into details but she has had a bad life and never gave up. if you need a getaway, i have a futon mattress youre more then welcome to crash on. i did that for her. id do it for anyone. im hopin its just a question and we're all not jumpin to conclusions

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Poster: mudcatbluez Date: Aug 8, 2007 3:39pm
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Damn, Dire,when you feel like asking a question...

I think I might've had the muzzle of my .45 in my mouth once upon a time, on the downslope of a nasty coke-and-booze bender. The only thing that kept me from pulling the trigger was me flashing on my partime girlfriend upstairs having to clean my brains off her living room wall. It provided the essential pause.

The very next year, I think I might've spent a couple days honing a piece of metal on the floor of a county jail cell, laying all the requisite plans for how to cut one's own throat in an observation cell. That night, through the hours waiting for "lights out," I ended up having my own private Gethsemene...and ultimately experiencing one of my life's more crucial turning points. Sometimes Hope comes in only the dimmest gleam, but bright enough to "make it one more night." When all else seems a yawning blackness, a well of pain if you will, such gleams often prove the lifeline.

Well, it's been a few days (......) since then and I've obviously never followed through. Haven't considered it since. There is little I can add that Nagdot and Rob haven't already voiced more eloquently. There is, of course, the requisite phrase of suicide being a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Me, from the hilltop of the present, I realize how cool life has and can turn out--blessings & loves & ecstasies I could not have imagined back when everything seemed so dark.

None of it would have ever been if I'd pulled the trigger in 1986.

We've got today, we've got tomorrow, and the realization that the wheel does turn.

Peace.

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Poster: direwolf0701 Date: Aug 8, 2007 4:26pm
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thank you mudcat - that was exactlty what i wanted to hear - thank you man - i am close man

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Poster: ducats Date: Aug 8, 2007 4:31pm
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if you started this thread because you are contemplating suicide then please stop posting/reading this forum and go see someone who specializes in just such a subject

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Poster: mcglone Date: Aug 8, 2007 4:42pm
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thanks ducats. maybe you could step away for a little bit... there are no taboos here. as rob stated, dire is amongst friends that love him. if this thread isn't for you, please look away.

thank-you and peace.

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Poster: ducats Date: Aug 8, 2007 4:24pm
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a selfish act? anybody who feels that way obviously has ego problems. I've read some ridiculous threads on this forum but this one takes the cake. a selfish act - you people are a joke.

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Poster: BryanE Date: Aug 8, 2007 6:55pm
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You were always the one in class who got a star by your name for compassion, weren't you?

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Poster: nagdot Date: Aug 8, 2007 4:45pm
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a joke is someone who has something to say about something they know nuttin about.

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Poster: robthewordsmith Date: Aug 8, 2007 3:34pm
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Don't know about suicide as such - but I've wondered what it would be like if I could just clear the record, wipe the slate, just never be. It's a wonderful life I guess!

My sister-in-law thinks that suicide is the ultimate selfish act. I think she may be right - people I've known who've had close friends or relatives commit suicide carry it with them always.

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Poster: direwolf0701 Date: Aug 8, 2007 3:39pm
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i wont do it to my kids - would never let that hang over their heads

was just wondering what people thought

yes, ive thought about it, but i just cant - not in my nature

i can changemy life in other ways - just cant ruin my daughters by doing that even if i wanted to sorry to bring this u\p


my apologies in bringing this up to the forum - sorry arb

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Poster: robthewordsmith Date: Aug 8, 2007 3:47pm
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Dire - you're among friends here. You bring up any damn thing you please. If you want to email me about anything then please do. I'll get back to you within the day - that's a promise. Take care, old buddy.

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Poster: direwolf0701 Date: Aug 8, 2007 3:52pm
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dont worry bout it

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Poster: ghostofpig Date: Aug 8, 2007 5:13pm
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We do.

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Poster: William Tell Date: Aug 8, 2007 4:27pm
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Hey Dire--I will assume you post as just a serious "academic" question, and on that front, the answere is a resounding "no." I have lived thru two of them with family members...tough situation.

But if it is more than academic, email me...or email someone or better yet, call someone...

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Poster: direwolf0701 Date: Aug 8, 2007 4:33pm
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doin that now

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Poster: SactownTom Date: Aug 9, 2007 8:24am
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Hey Dire--I just logged in and read this thread. I can't really add anything to the amazing and heartfelt responses you've received. I just want to say hang in there, life has a way of turning around. It definitely has for me...

This forum is amazing. I am overwhelmed by the love expressed in this thread. It is a remarkable community...

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Poster: lobster12 Date: Aug 8, 2007 7:27pm
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wolf,

I'm hardly an expert on the subject and would never speak about something I know nothing about. I will say that there are a lot of cool folks in this forum who are thinking about you. hang in there my man.

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Poster: direwolf0701 Date: Aug 8, 2007 7:38pm
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i'm not going to do anything stupid, was just throwing a comment out there. granted its been on my mind. i dont know man.... but i cant - ive got two wonderful little girls - so a mute point. i just wish things were different

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Poster: skuzzlebutt Date: Aug 8, 2007 8:01pm
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Been there, quite briefly, about four years ago. My life was a void- absolutely nothing there.

Or so I thought.

Long story short, I held on by my fingernails, and gradually, everything began to fill up again and the color got switched back on, from sources both new and familiar. I can honestly say that I'm far happier than I ever thought I'd be again.

Hang on and hang tight, brother.

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Poster: mickmac Date: Aug 8, 2007 8:25pm
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I think about it often but then again I think of alot of things. Hang tough, It's all you can do.

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Poster: direwolf0701 Date: Aug 8, 2007 9:15pm
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i am hangin man - my girls make my life shine even when the darkness invades

thank you

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Poster: jglynn1.2 Date: Aug 9, 2007 5:58am
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Many do wish things were different . . . hopefully they will change for the better. We can only wait and see, or do our best to help make them better. Feeling down is a powerful feeling, depression runs in both sides of my family and I've had bouts of depression since I was very young, I 'self medicated' from age 13 through age 41 and it never really helped. Now I stick to coffee & ice cream - I have a wonderful family, but still get down on occasion - but it always passes.

Hope your feeling better

"Don't let it bring you down
It's only castles burning,
Find someone who's turning
And you will come around." - Neil

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Poster: Hugo Fugerzev Date: Aug 8, 2007 3:36pm
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Never seriously.
I remember taking a pshychology class and this guy was entertaining the notion. He told a story about entering 'how to commit suicide' on a search engine. I guess that search sends up a big red flag to Big Brother and he had cops on his door in 20 minutes.
I can't confirm the truthfulness of that story. And I'm really not going to try just to see either. Interesting story though.

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Poster: whirlwind dreamer 65-95 Date: Aug 8, 2007 3:57pm
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are you for real??????? dire get a grip!!~!! think bout that!!! my friend

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Poster: ghostofpig Date: Aug 8, 2007 2:45pm
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Have you?

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Poster: high flow Date: Aug 8, 2007 3:14pm
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No. I can't imagine that.

D, you and I have talked about Brent's passing....so I know how you feel. I feel the same way about suicide....Tragic and unforgiveable.

Brent's was considered an accidental overdose, but that's just a product of deliberate mis-use of the human body. So sad.

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Poster: direwolf0701 Date: Aug 8, 2007 3:21pm
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yes

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Poster: ghostofpig Date: Aug 8, 2007 4:48pm
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email received

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Poster: mcglone Date: Aug 8, 2007 4:15pm
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don,

honestly, yes, i have thought about it as recently as this past january, but i didn't have the 'courage'. thankfully, loving, caring people such as yourself helped me regain perspective. trust me, whatever it is, this too shall pass. TRUST ME.

you know how to reach me. i'm/we're here for you my friend.

ian

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Poster: direwolf0701 Date: Aug 8, 2007 4:29pm
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thank you ian

if you even knew what your last email meant....

that was unreal my friend - just wonderful even though you said you only had a minute to type -you nailed it.

thank you - you have no idea what you said to me

don

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Poster: elbow1126 Date: Aug 9, 2007 8:57am
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Dire,

We have never spoke but I have read your posts forever. I can't really add much more to what has been said other than some lyrics from a Peter Gabriel song. I know that you like his music.

don't give up
'cause you have friends
don't give up
you're not the only one
don't give up
no reason to be ashamed
don't give up
you still have us
don't give up now
we're proud of who you are
don't give up
you know it's never been easy
don't give up
'cause I believe there's the a place
there's a place where we belong

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Poster: nagdot Date: Aug 8, 2007 2:55pm
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ive thought of homicide. my personal thoughts on suicide is that its easy to do. only the weak minded go thru with it. its a total cop out. total selfishness. everyone has issues. death is never the answer. its aweful that not only do you take your own life but you also take the lives of those around you. the guilt you create for those is tremendous. while your pain is gone we still have the pain. it doesnt go away.

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Poster: direwolf0701 Date: Aug 8, 2007 3:19pm
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not sure it is easy to do, but i agree with the rest of you post

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Poster: BryanE Date: Aug 8, 2007 6:07pm
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Well, you'd better get a bucket, 'cause I think I'm about to throw up---

Me? Mr. Happy himself? No, never, not at all.

The real truth is that the emotional roller coaster that I call home would give any E-Ticket ride at Disneyland a run for its money.

As I've gotten older, I've actually been able to occasionally find solace in bipolarity. When I'm thinking clearly, I can realize that life really is about ups and downs, even for the reasonably well-adjusted among us. I can also see that when the darkness starts to creep in, as it sometimes does, that eventually this, too, shall pass.

I'm so much better now than I once was. There are a number of reasons for that. First of all, as I indicated, now that I'm older, I have a much better perspective on things than I did as a younger man. MUCH better.

A huge step forward was to quit drinking. I had no idea how much of a positive turnaround that sobriety would amount to in my life. I had been living for years with the mistaken assumption that all of that beer was actually fun. And I guess, to a degree, it was, because while I was drunk, I didn't give a fuck. No problem, man. But after about 20 years, even a rank idiot might be able to conclude that it had stopped being about fun, but was instead about knowing no other way to live. From where I stand now, though, I have nearly six alcohol-free years behind me. Ten years ago, I really didn't believe I would ever be able to say something like that. For whatever it's worth, and to me, it's priceless, it really is my biggest success in life. "All the things I planned to do, I only did halfway." Ain't it the truth, but getting sober is one thing, maybe the only thing, that I did 100%. Yes, I am a recreational marijuana user, and some might argue that makes my sobriety only fractionally successful. But it was all the beer that was killing me. Smoking a joint and watching a Cardinals game is not life-threatening.

The undiagnosed epilepsy that I lived with for well over a decade also contributed to my mental instability. But I've been receiving treatment for it for quite a few years now, plus my doctor put me on a fairly mild antidepressant, too, and that has been beneficial to me.

All of that stuff notwithstanding, though, things used to get pretty goddamn bad with me. Hopelessness, despair, apathy, bitterness, resentment, embarrassment at my lack of achievement in life, loneliness, poor self-image, misplaced ideals and values . . . on and on and on . . . I was a guy with a lot of issues for a long, long time. And as I mentioned at the beginning, manic-depression was one of them, too, and still is.

There were a couple of times when I really believed I could not, and did not want to live through another day. But because of some quick intervention by people that felt otherwise who loved me and didn't want to lose me, I can sit here today and say that one can learn to cope and learn to hope.

Life really can be a bitch sometimes. For everybody! And honestly, I have never really gotten used to being content. Like my doctor told me when he put me on the mood med, "It will give you just a little bit of a buffer, that ability to stop and think for a minute before doing something you'll regret. But then again, you might just be an asshole, in which case, I don't think I can help you." And I could appreciate that.

But with each year, I improve, and I get further and further away from those darkest days. Am I completely immune now from bad thoughts? I really wish I could say that I am, but that would be dishonest of me. As a matter of fact, I had a bout with depression quite recently, my first in a relatively long time. What I've learned about myself, though, is that I have the ability to be smart about my emotions and that I have the strength to gain control of them and stop them from controlling me.

No, I really haven't gotten used to contentment. But I'm getting there. I really am.

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Poster: Dancinbears Date: Dec 24, 2012 8:54pm
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Oh Bryan. I am so sorry the pain was too much. I hope you are at peace finally. I will remember you, and all our talks, and your sense of humor, for the rest of my life. Rest in peace Bryan. Love you.

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Poster: GratefulFred65 Date: Dec 23, 2012 11:01pm
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Rest in peace, BryanE.
It breaks my heart so to know that you hid your struggles so well. You really weren't alone.

It's all over now. You be jammin' with Jerry and the gang.

I am sorry that you hurt so bad. I am glad the hurt is over for you. I Love you more than words can tell..........

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Poster: direwolf0701 Date: Aug 8, 2007 7:09pm
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wow bryan - that was a great post- thank you man!!!

kinda spot on - but i dont want to get into it - but thank you my friend - that helped buddy :)

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Poster: BryanE Date: Aug 8, 2007 7:50pm
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Hey dire, my man, the pleasure is all mine. And an emailwas sent just a few minutes ago.

And how 'bout ol' mudcatbluez chiming in? Man, I haven't heard from that guy in too long!

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Poster: direwolf0701 Date: Aug 8, 2007 9:12pm
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mud was cool chimin in - been talkin with him in chat for the past hour or so - very cool - thanks my brother